You will be Missed

You will be missed, grandma

From I remember, grandma has been a kind and strict person. She lives near by our house and has been taking care of us since we are small. She ran a small grocery shop business at her home too. I still remember how I got chase by the dalmatian every time I went to her home. (Darn the dalmatian - The poor dog get poisoned and death somehow after a few years later... ~:|)

I know I has been a very naughty kids when I am young, getting grandma junk foods to eat. Mom has been scolding us for "stealing" the junk food to eat but grandma said is alright, just let them have it. (And of course, we continue to munch the delicious mamee/mimi which are "sponsored" by grandma). :"P Brother reminds me that, there is one time where we have took out all the cigarettes from the box to play and yet grandma still forgive us on that. Grandma has came over and stay with us after granddad passed away. I still remember that I was like standard 3 at that time. Since then on, grandma has been running business from our home behind the extended area.

But of course, I got scold by grandma as well during my secondary school days when there is only mom, me and grandma at home for not doing things properly. I believe she is scolding for my good sack. (Although I know that I am not be able to absorb all her mentoring properly during my rebellious period). Anyway, time flies and grandma get older, weaker and started to fall sick. I guess everything started to fall apart after she fell down while she is watering the plant outside the house. After that on wards, grandma's health has been deteriorated. I still remember there is one time that she has been hospitalized. LB and I have visited her in the hospital and found that she don't want to take the food feed by the maid. So in the end, I took over, persuade and feed her slowly. I am glad that she finished all the foods during that time. holding her hands and realize that she has been getting older and older each day. :'(

Anyway, recieved a call last Friday around 530am from brother and has been informed that grandma has passed away in her sleep. I know that this is like a cycle of life that everyone will need to go through. Staying tough, I've informed my project teams and went back to my hometown to settle everything with brother. I thought that I will be strong enough to go over with everything, until I realize that I am not when grandma was pushed into the crematorium. Suddenly, there is a feeling started to flow out from my body and realized that I am going to miss grandma forever. Controlling the urge of crying and preventing the tears from falling down, (I bet grandma won't go in peace if she see us that way). until the door was closed, I quickly go and washed my face to readjust back the feeling. After that, I realized that I am not the only one who have the same feeling as well. (I bet everyone who is there feel the same way as I did).

Rest well grandma.

Anyway, I am back to PG, recalling the bits and bits of the memories that I have. Readjusting the feeling and get myself back align again. The photo posted is one of last series that I shoot while I am back in Alor Setar. Bet it will be a good remembrance for all of us. :') I know grandma has left us to a holy land. but her memories, teaching and mentoring will always be with us. You will be missed grandma. This is a tribute post for you. I hope you will be well there.

And to the readers, I hope that you all will cherish your loved one. life is short and time is short. Do let them know how much you care for them. :') Cheers.